lucky;

Despise the fact that i really really hate my hairdo during Kuantan's reception and the 10 inches ugly make-up that the stupid "pak andam" did (i wiped off the make-up & succumbed to the fact that i was destined to not wearing make-up on my big day), these cute kids (weddingbellsphotos.blogspot.com) are really talented & cheer me with these lovely wedding shots! Oh God, am so lucky. Big smile.

Somehow, I really looked happy in above pictures kan? Smile. Suka! Thanks Baha & Barney! Cheers!

check rock, check rock!

8.35 - 9.10pm TONITE! Check, check, ok go!

http://www.urbanscapes.com.my/music/

mula;

saya cari happiness. kdg2 sangat saya jumpa. dapat sentuh sekejap, terus happiness lari pergi. saya cari-cari lagi. really sure, nanti2 dapat tangkap and sentuh sekejap. jadilah kot.

am at peace today;

Our new 2-rooms apartment. I stay here alone most of the time. Though I always complaint that weekend-wife was never my ambition, nah, here I am now. This place is still incomplete, target to get it done by Eid this year.

Wa Caya Lu la Chetan Bhagat;

Don’t just have career or academic goals. Set goals to give you a balanced, successful life. I use the word balanced before successful. Balanced means ensuring your health, relationships, mental peace are all in good order. There is no point of getting a promotion on the day of your breakup. There is no fun in driving a car if your back hurts. Shopping is not enjoyable if your mind is full of tensions.

Life is one of those races in nursery school where you have to run with a marble in a spoon kept in your mouth. If the marble falls, there is no point coming first. Same is with life where health and relationships are the marble. Your striving is only worth it if there is harmony in your life. Else, you may achieve the success, but this spark, this feeling of being excited and alive, will start to die.

One thing about nurturing the spark - don’t take life seriously. Life is not meant to be taken seriously, as we are really temporary here. We are like a pre-paid card with limited validity. If we are lucky, we may last another 50 years. And 50 years is just 2,500 weekends. Do we really need to get so worked up?

It’s ok, bunk a few classes, scoring low in couple of papers, goof up a few interviews, take leave from work, Enjoy with your friends, fall in love, little fights with your loved Ones . We are people, not programmed devices.

Don’t be serious, be sincere

--- By Chetan Bhagat

ijab kabul;

8 years, now we will start new beginning.

bikin panas;

adik: woi kak, ko dah kawin, selalu pulak balik sini?

mama: kan husband dia takde sini, dia takut tinggal umah baru dia sorang2.

adik: ek eleh. dah tu, umah ko kat damansara tu sape duk?

aku: bobo (rabbit aku).

mama: (gelak2)

adik: ek eleh. baik ko tak pyh kawin!

aku: (rasa nak tendang kepala adik aku laju2)

biar kita cerita pasal kahwin sampai muntah;

diam. aku sedang fokus, apa perasaan beza yg wujud jauh jauh tu dalam hati aku bilamasa aku bukan lagi aku yg dulu. diam lagi. fokus lagi. tiada beza sangat pun. tapi bau2 kemarahan masih ada di situ, tak gerak mana2 pun. sah. sahlah aku ni memang orang yg marah sentiasa. nothing wrong with that kan? tentu manusia beza2.

dari mula hari pertama bergelar tunangan orang sehinggalah ke malam terakhir sebelum bergelar isteri, takda satu detik pun yg tak mencabar. owh, baru aku faham bila orang asyik2 cakap bertunang tu banyak dugaan. betul, memang betul.

ini benda yg selalu aku bagitau orang2; "i love my job, i love my job". sampailah aku tak sedar, kerja aku tu memakan hidup aku sikit demi sedikit. jadi? bukan semua yg kita mau kita akan dapat kan? adil.

seminggu sebelum majlis perkahwinan, aku tak tido straight. bukan jelmaan panda lagi, aku nampak org 2-3 bayang. fun jugak life aku masa tu, nampak banyak je sekeliling aku selalu. tapi, aku ni memang jenis yg teguh, lepas juga majlis ijab kabul & majlis persandingan aku yg aku anggap perfect. amin. jelaslah Allah memang sayangkan aku. alhamdulillah.

enough talking. gambar hiasan buat penyedap mata; doorgift big day aku.

terbaru;

tiba-tiba.

i decided to visit.

here.

whole lot of things to write about.

but nothing come out.

i need time.

till then.

let me figure honeymoon spot first.

and continue arguing with me long-distance husband.

and still looking at mama with angry face.

but inside, lots of love. lots lots of love.

peace.

joy & pain

the wedding craze has over. will start sharing on the wedd prep details soon.
cheers!