part-time LOVERS

antara kerja & apa sahaja yg aku lakukan dlm hidup. yg ini buat aku kembali kenal siapa diri aku sebenar...

ada soalan utk imej2 di atas... if aku decide utk jadi kakitangan kerajaan, masih boleh buat aktiviti2 seperti di atas tak?

perempuan berhijab sempurna adalah perempuan yg paling seksi

semalam lepas my so called appraisal session sama senior manager ttg skop kerja, future project & commitment aku, somehow aku telah merasa sikit motivated towards kerja aku. and later that evening, aku terima invitation ini:

selama beberapa bulan ini, aku rasa ini adalah satu-satunya event invitation yg intrigued aku utk really attend. aku mula la simpan harapan agar my superior allow me to attend this since it's happening tomorrow morning 10am-1pm (working hours). Pagi ini aku masuk office agak lewat (seperti biasa, aku selalu lewat). Satu-satunya motivation aku hari ini, wandering whether or not I could attend IFF. Hakikatnya, langit tak selalu cerah, my colleague yg juga dpt same invitation has informed me that mrs. senior manager did not allow us to go. maybe mcm tiada relevan dgn government relations networking. skrg aku rasa down semula. and rasa mahu berhenti kerja telah dtg kembali. yeah, hati aku mmg senang berubah-rubah.

THE ONLY 1 THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE MY OWNSELF AGAIN;

Perihal:  busy

Jumaat tengahari aku akan bertolak ke Jasin and will be there until saturday 6 pm (hopefully) when I actually need to get my ass in KL by 9pm for the above gig.  We will be playing the clash-london calling & the police-message in the bottle but we only had 1 practice.  Thanks to Astro, u makes my life miserable.   

Highlight:  AKU TETAP NAK BERHENTI!!!

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Working makes me feel old.

Working in Astro makes me feel old.

Working in Corporate Communication & Community Affairs’ Department of Astro makes me feel old.

Working in Government & Public Relations’ Unit of Corporate Communication & Community Affairs’ Department in Astro makes me feel reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally old.

I want to quit.

don't blame the parents;

i was 19, what do you expect? sigh. 

kecewa dgn diri sendiri

Nor Helina Mohd Noor, based on the results of your free test, your personality type is...

INFP (Introvert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)

People of this type tend to be: quiet, reserved, and kind; deeply passionate, sensitive, and easily hurt; loving and dedicated to those close to them; creative, original, and imaginative; curious and flexible in small matters; nonconforming. The most important thing to INFPs is their deeply held beliefs and living in harmony with their values.

p/s all this while, i always make myself belief that am extrovert, spontaneous, loud and hard to please. hum. ternyata aku tak kenal diri aku sendiri. down.

Menggeletek, melatah;

Manusia.

Terlalu cetek dgn pemikiran & fahaman kolot sendiri.

Terlalu kejam utk peka sama hati & perasaan manusia lain.

Terlalu bangga dgn sifat busuk hati & hasad dengki yg wujud dlm jiwa hitam.

Terlalu bodoh utk merasa diri bijak pandai.

Terlalu megah utk merasa diri konon dikenali & disanjung oleh entah siapa siapa entah.

Terlalu gembira utk menempatkan diri dlm lingkungan kumpulan sosial yg pada diri & fahaman tersendiri mereka yg kononya mereka itu significant.

Geleng-geleng.

Kau hanya perlu mentertawakan diri kau sendiri, bukan orang lain.

Kerana kita semua rasa geli hati.