This is the time when I realize clearly that the people I could count on are actually totally superficial only. And the part that I hate the most is, I learn to take it easy on them, because am simply sick of living like I lived before; being deep & concern on every single matters.
I found out that I can't have a conversation with someone younger without feeling that they are only pretending to understand how it feel....conversations become meaningless so I search for something more & this leads to my own isolation.
People start asking about work and for the first time ever, I actually give a damn when I doubt a straight-answer which leads me to contemplate my own worth.
The majority of "friends" are only there when they're high in the dark area but once the sun shoot my eyes, I come to realize am always on my own. This explains why most of them think am a boring person now.
But am okay, am just growing old.
