4 months;

baby waved at mommy during scanning today. oh joy!

am i lucky enough?

Peeps,

Am 12-13 weeks pregnant, still wandering around Empire Shopping Gallery pushing myself as I used to claim this as my dream job. Yes, dream job. What the hell am I thinking?

I've got head-huntered by an agency, to send me over for an interview at KLCC. Same post, same shit but bigger opportunity, bigger company with bigger perks of course. But hey, am I lucky enough? I almost forgot that am married & carrying a child now. Nobody would hire a pregnant lady thus I felt like am such a loser cause if I really get a job there, my whole maternity expenses will be fully-covered. Ah dang!

At the end of the day, job is just a job. Am hesitating to either devote myself to this child in future or fully commit to this-so-called-dream-job, rise & fall again and again. Ugh.

Not all news are bad. I'll get my husband to live with me soon. We are no longer weekends' husband & wife. Thank you God, I am so lucky.

Bitter smile.

newsflash;

this is my 3rd test kit.

ijab kabul ii;

we had strong chemistry with our wedding photographers;

how i feel today;

kalau la ada satu hari dalam hidup aku takat ni yg i really need a shoulder to cry on, it would be today.

dalam banyak2 tahun dalam hidup aku takat ni, tahun ni yg most tak inspired.

dalam banyak2 cita2 yg aku kejar selama ni, cita2 yg satu ni yg patut aku paling proud with.

am supposed to be at my very peace, tapi aku kekok sesuaikan diri dgn aku yg baru.

love in krabi

i never go crazy over beach, nor island, nor getting myself burned under the 40 celcius hot sun just to look sexy tanned.

but, i fell in love with krabi. the 5 star tree house, the private pool in our honeymoon villa, breakfast served in our room every single morning, cartoon channel that made us laugh non stop, mew on the stereo every evening, the sounds of bird chirping, caterpillars dropped by & say hello before they becoming lovely butterflies, we were in our own small, happy little forest, the lovely people we encountered, wind blew subtly on our face, not saying goodbye but see you again. so much love there we left, my honeymoon was perfect.

alhamdullilah.