Menjadi dewasa;

This is the time when I realize clearly that the people I could count on are actually totally superficial only. And the part that I hate the most is, I learn to take it easy on them, because am simply sick of living like I lived before; being deep & concern on every single matters.

I found out that I can't have a conversation with someone younger without feeling that they are only pretending to understand how it feel....conversations become meaningless so I search for something more & this leads to my own isolation.

People start asking about work and for the first time ever, I actually give a damn when I doubt a straight-answer which leads me to contemplate my own worth.

The majority of "friends" are only there when they're high in the dark area but once the sun shoot my eyes, I come to realize am always on my own. This explains why most of them think am a boring person now.

But am okay, am just growing old.

masa depan yg buat aku t'senyum;

http://www.estate123.com/reviews_articles/article_review_detail.aspx?r_id=5A

Bukan dunia korporat, jauh sikit dari dunia plastik, aku nak mulakan perjalanan.

Career Development

Aku bukan orang suka tukar2 kerja, tapi aku pentingkan kepuasan diri, ok, aku penting diri. I get bored easily doing repetitive duty. Dalam masa setahun selepas sahaja grad aku dah ada di 1-2 organisasi. Masih tak puas hati. Masih mencari. Dapat. Masih mencari lagi. Tak dapat. Mencari lagi.

Tapi sila rujuk ini sebagai teladan;

Thomas Jefferson (1743-1826), the 3rd president of the United States, distinguished himself aslo as a horticulturist, statesman, architect, archaeologist, paleontologist, author, inventor and founder of the University of Virginia.

He poses a direct contradiction to "purist" who speak against developing into more than one professional pursuit and counsel against pursuing many interests in one's lifetime.

While not many may match Jefferson for brilliance, most would welcome diversity and variety in their lives as an effective antidote to boredom & staleness.

- Dr. Elizabeth Nair, CEO of Work & Health Psychologists, The Star, 30th Sept 2009-

BEBEL

hari ini aku rasa nak bebel-bebel. hari ini aku rasa nak emo-emo. hari ini aku rasa nak marah-marah. pembaca hantu sekalian (aku mentioned hantu sb aku tau takda org pun yg baca blog ini), ketahuilah hakikatnya, bebel2, emo2, marah2 adalah perangai aku sehari-hari bukan hari ini saja.

takpa. bagi aku peluang ok.

aku nak bebel tentang bad traits aku. dlm resume aku tulis;

• Possess good interpersonal character.
• Energetic and highly motivated.
• Able to work independently or in a group.
• Fast learner, always eager to learn new things
• Able to work under minimum supervision

See? Kamu orang tulis yg itu2 juga tak dlm resume? To impress? Or to jadi biasa2, I guess ramai org tulis those things in resume kan? Padahal aku rasa resume ni aku tiru dari one of my classmate di college dulu (now he's married).

Back to main point nak cerita ttg bad traits aku kan. Dah dekat 3 minggu aku heret seret kaki paksa diri pergi kerja. Masalah? Ingat tak cerita aku dulu sewaktu aku juga tidak happy di Astro? Tiba2 aku sedar, aku tak happy di semua tempat. Sigh. Maybe masalahnya bukan tempat kerja, tapi me? Obvious?

Jauh dalam sudut hati, aku rasa bersalah sebab selalu tak puas hati dengan SEMUA benda. Mcm tak bersyukur. Aku nak cari lagi, kejar lagi, lagi & lagi.

Aku lagi update resume aku yg entah apa apa entah. So, for now aku declare diri aku sebagai sang nomad, yg akan berpindah kerja dari satu organization ke organization yg lain. Aku nak minta tolong kawan2 ni, next time jgn tanya aku kerja di mana ok. I could be anywhere everywhere. Yang pasti, I didn't get the job to be based in UK tu. Not good enough. Not good enough.

Seperti biasa, aku down.

self-motivate

ini bukan sessi bangga diri. tapi aku perlu ini utk bantu aku bangun & ingat semula apa yg selama ini aku kejarkan.

KLIUC'S 6th convocation (Aug 2008)

"Nor Helina binti Mohd Noor, KLIUC's valedictorian and also top achiever from the School of Linguistic Infrastructure and Liberal Studies with total CGPA of 3.944 delivered hermoving speech on behalf of the graduates".

Robot Asmara EP Launch Gig;

Date: 7th August, 2009

Time: 830pm

Venue: Taman Budaya, Kuala Lumpur

Attended by: Beloved friends & very little people who appreciate our music. Kudos. It was supposed to be personal & intimate like that and we appreciate your support.

It was a beautiful hell, through magnificent processes, we did it!

We're officially launched!

from the newspaper;

Model fined and ordered whipped for drinking beer

KUANTAN: The Syariah High Court here has fined a model RM5,000 fine and ordered her whipped six times after she pleaded guilty to consuming an alcoholic drink in public last year.

Syariah Judge Abdul Rahman Yunus said Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarnor, 32, from Sungai Siput in Perak would be imprisoned three years if she failed to pay the fine.

Kartika was accused of consuming beer at the Cherating Bay Lounge of the Legend Hotel in Cherating at 11.40pm on July 11.

She was charged under Section 136 of the Pahang Administration of the Islam Law and Malay Custom Enactment.

The accused, who cried when the judgement was delivered, said she would appeal. — Bernama

Undang2 seperti di atas diguna pakai di KL kota durjana tak? Ramai je budak2 bantai minum di tempat awam mcm tak bersalah?