Tuesday, October 19, 2010

am i lucky enough?

Peeps,

Am 12-13 weeks pregnant, still wandering around Empire Shopping Gallery pushing myself as I used to claim this as my dream job. Yes, dream job. What the hell am I thinking?

I've got head-huntered by an agency, to send me over for an interview at KLCC. Same post, same shit but bigger opportunity, bigger company with bigger perks of course. But hey, am I lucky enough? I almost forgot that am married & carrying a child now. Nobody would hire a pregnant lady thus I felt like am such a loser cause if I really get a job there, my whole maternity expenses will be fully-covered. Ah dang!

At the end of the day, job is just a job. Am hesitating to either devote myself to this child in future or fully commit to this-so-called-dream-job, rise & fall again and again. Ugh.

Not all news are bad. I'll get my husband to live with me soon. We are no longer weekends' husband & wife. Thank you God, I am so lucky.

Bitter smile.